Breaking Addictions by Releasing your Past Emotions | Omar Pinto Motivational Speech | Goalcast
I’m on the playground my sister comes
running to me she says Omar there’s just
kid picking on me where is he where is
he he’s over there on the playground
run over the playground shoulders back
chest out looked him right in the eye
and I said stop messing with my sister
the kid punches me in the stomach knocks
the wind out of me I dropped to the
ground
I can’t breathe I can’t move I’ve never
been punched in the stomach in my life
I’m eight terrified as soon as I can
catch my breath the only thing that I
can think to do is to get up and run now
and that moment would change my life
forever
because from that moment on I would run
I would run away from everything and
everyone that threatened me in my life I
stopped standing up for myself for eight
years what you see what you saw was this
scared little kid and so I remember my
dad was he was just kind of a bully kind
of picked on me a little bit he actually
picked on me a lot I hated going to
school I hated the other kids I hated my
dad I hated myself and what was starting
to build inside of me was his anger and
bitterness and resentment until I turned
16 and then things would change yet
again and I get handed my very first
beer 16 years old and it all went away
the fear the self-loathing the sadness
the loneliness the insecurity it was
gone I was so happy and I loved it and I
would go to parties and I would pick
fights and I remember waking up so many
mornings black eye busted lip blood all
over me
in consequence after consequence I have
to have I would have to face fights
embarrassing my friends losing
girlfriends getting arrested for DUI
waking up in jail and this went on for
12 years before I moved to Costa Rica
and Costa Rica that was the game changer
and I met the rocket fuel that same week
of all that his confidence and power
cocaine
and I loved it I could reinvent myself I
said this is it this is it for me and I
immediately started to live this double
life because my girlfriend was not
having it I just met this girl and she
was like I don’t want nothing to do with
that drug lifestyle so I had to lead
this double life where I was a boyfriend
during the day and as this Rockstar
party or a night for that first year I
kept it going so then I asked her to
marry me a year later
oh we’re engaged she’s got to slow down
now I got worse here later I we finally
get married
and I remember the conversation we had
weeks after we got married and I was
still out partying she’s like
we’re married now you’re not supposed to
do this anymore
I said well just because we got married
doesn’t mean that I signed up for all
this six months later she gets pregnant
he’s gotta stop I get worse four months
into the pregnancy she’s gone
it wasn’t just about her anymore
baby so at that moment in my life I
started losing everything I was really
sick I was in a really bad place
physically a few months later my
daughter was born and I remember that I
was sitting at in the delivery room and
this nurse walks in with my daughter she
says he would you like to hold your
daughter I said yes please
and she puts this little angel in my
arms
I knew in that moment I had a lot more
than my daughter in my arms and in that
moment I found God again and I got down
on my knees and I said God please help
me please help me I cannot stop doing
drugs I’m ruining my family ruining
everything around me and I just can’t
stop so take me out of this world or
help me get clean I had a reason live I
had purpose
and all of a sudden I had this vision in
my mind I had this vision of her being
16 years old being in school on her
friends saying what does your dad do for
a living and she says my dad died of a
drug overdose my dad’s in jail I started
to cry and I was crying all over her I
said I said god help me help me help me
make her proud of me help me be the man
she deserves me to be and this fire just
ignited inside of me and I had what many
of us in recovery call a spiritual
awakening and I saw the picture of the
therapist and got up I got dressed and I
drove to his office I didn’t call I just
hoped I hoped that he would be there I
get there and there he is
and I said
I need help I can’t stop doing drugs I
need your help he says I’m so glad
you’re back let me give you the
directions to that meeting it starts in
an hour
I immediately drove to that meeting i
sat down five other men and I said my
name is Omar I’m an addict and I need
help and I started to work I was all in
I got a sponsor a year into my recovery
I was sponsoring guys I was all and it
was changing my life my focus was clear
I knew what I had to do now three years
into my recovery is when I was doing my
ninth step for those of you that know
what a ninth step is where you make
amends to people you’ve harmed the most
and so it’s time to make amends to my
ex-wife
I still wanted her back I mean a big
part of me was like you know doing the
work in hopes that maybe you know she’d
come back so three years later I show up
and I say I’m here to make amends I
can’t say I’m sorry for all the horrible
things that I’ve done to you in our
marriage and in our relationship what I
was staring at was the purest example of
unconditional love that I had ever seen
in my life I didn’t even know that
existed and I was staring at I said what
are you thinking she said I’m thinking
that I hope that someday you can see
yourself
than where I see you
I hope that one day you can see how
great you really are we became best
friends and partners in raising our
daughter my daughter only knows
unconditional love she’s never seen us
fight this month on May 26 I celebrate
sixteen years clean and sober
[Applause]
what was I unwilling to let go of you
see I thought I was holding on to the
drugs in the alcohol but what was I
really holding on to what was
eight-year-old Omar holding on to what I
was holding on to was all the anger and
bitterness and resentment from all the
childhood bullying that happened to me
in my life eight years of being picked
on bullied and made fun of I wanted
justice I wanted somebody to pay thank
God justice never came because if I had
gotten the justice that I felt that I
deserved and that moment when I prayed
for death I wouldn’t be on this stage
tonight
see justice was never gonna heal me but
love did love heal me and it continues
to heal me today if you’re watching this
right now now you are holding on to
something desperately wanting to let go
then there’s three things that I want
you to do right now number one you’ve
gotta let go let go of everyone and
everything that does not serve you
number two you got to go searching for
love you got to go looking for love go
find it in your friends and your family
in your co-workers and number three ask
for help
be open be honest be vulnerable but ask
for help the man that you see here
standing here before you tonight is the
hero of his own story I am the hero of
my
story the legacy that I leave behind for
my daughter is the hero’s journey what
is the legacy that you want to leave
it is time to be the hero of your story
